You Are Invited!!!!!

You are invited to a Lia Sophia Jewelry Party!!!!

When: Tuesday August 31st, 2010

Where: My place ( e-mail or call me for address and directions)

Time: 7:00pm to 9:00pm



Don't miss out on fun, food and girlie play time. And lets not forget the a great sale of purchasing 2 items at full price and getting up to 4 items at half price. And as ALWAYS the lesser items are you full price items. Nice!!!


If you are not able to come but want to get something for this coming fall check out there web site HERE! Then you can e-mail or call me with your order.


Refreshments served and kids are welcome.
See you all soon!!!!

Family Reunions & Camping

This past weekend August 6th and 7th was the Jonas family reunion ( my mom's side of the family). Which was held at Pine View Reservoir up Ogden Canyon. We got there late afternoon Friday and had just gotten our tent up when this huge storm blew in with 50mph gust along with a down pouring of rain. Amazing that our tent made it standing, but others did not. After the little storm I was able to get this view from our camp site in time for the next half of the storm that rolled in later that night.






But before the next part of the storm rolled in we did get to have fun visiting with family and making sure the kids didn't burn the camp down.

My brother Sean and his wife Natalie and the cutest little niece ever Sophie.
I love this picture of Sophie.
My cousin Lacie
John and his candid of the Pepsi.
Joseph and his always amusing faces.
Jarren and Stockton playing some crazy death game. Looks like Stockton won this round.
My cousins Lacie, Skyler, and Blake
John and I

After surviving an eventful evening of and night of Thunder, Lightening, and Rain. Which the boys slept through amazingly!!! We began the day. It was nice day with a few rain showers to keep things cool, but still got lots of sunshine for the boys to enjoy swimming in the lake.

Looks like my dad got to be the sucker to watch the kids in the water!! hehehe
Stockton and Jacob just hang in.
Joseph..."wait for me!!" Stockton..."Hurry Hurry!" As you can Jarren and Jacob don't care.
"Look at us we are the mud dancers!!"
Look! Jacob was actually caught on camera!!!
My aunt Denise hang in on the beach and working on a game for the kids later.
The boys taking a time out from the lake.
My dad cook in in the dutch oven. Yummy!!!
Game time!!!
"Where did everyone go?"

Jacob's 1st Day Of Kindergarten!!

Thought I was surprised at how big Jarren is, well I am even more surprised that Jacob is now big enough for Kindergarten. This is his big moment!!! Which started August 3rd 2010. He has been so excited for school start and waiting an extra week due to Kindergarten testing was not easy for him. I hope he keep his excitement for school and learning.
Jacob all ready to go with his new Iron Man backpack.
Jarren's 1st day going to school with his brother Jacob. Just crazy to think.
Jacob's 1st time lining up for Kindergarten.
Jacob working on his 1st assignment in class while parents are saying their goodbyes.
Jacob and I as I say my goodbyes. I did good ...and yes I did tear up a little at the thought I have two babies in school. I think Jacob was glad that I was leaving and taking the camera with me.

Time For School!!!

I can not believe that Jarren is old enough to be in 3rd Grade. Time has gone by so fast and he getting bigger and bigger everyday. He has grown into such and young man with a great love for his brothers. This year is a big year for him since this year he will have Jacob coming to school with him.
Jarren's 1st day of school.

One Last Summer Get Away

So a week after school started for Jarren we decided to go with my parents to NV to see old friends and the beginnings of Hot August Nights Classic Car Show. We stayed up at Lake Tahoe, one of my most favorite place to be. When we first got there I did not realize how much I have missed living there. It was crazy to see how much has changed from the new freeway to new developments. The only thing that has not change is the best color of brown you have ever seen. John got to go out with his buddies and I got to spend time with my girlfriends that I have not seen a long time. The boys got to do their favorite thing and that is play in the pool and be spoiled by grandma and grandpa.
John's favorite paint job.
Stock 64'...John wishes he had one!
My dad's 68' Firebird.


"We're done and want to go swimming!!"
The Best view of the car show with Lake Tahoe in the background.
John and the boys with my parents in the back taking one last look of the Lake before leaving.
Wishing we could have stayed longer.

After leaving Lake Tahoe we stopped and stayed with my friend Amber and her family. We was a night of flashbacks when Vanessa came over and shared a footage from my sister's sweet 16 surprise birthday party. WOW!!! we were dorks. I think all of our kids enjoyed seeing us act all crazy in front of the camera. But then we were kids ourselves.
Jarren with Cameron and Kyra playing the DS of course.
Jarren, Cameron, Joseph, and Jacob just before saying good bye at Amber's.

This was a very enjoyable trip and a long over due one. Thanks mom and dad for having us come and Amber thank you letting us crash at your house and making one of the best breakfasts I have ever had.

July 24th

For pioneer day we gathered as a friends and neighbors for a BBQ and fireworks.. We had a great time. Not to sure who had more fun with the fireworks the kids or the dads. It was nice to be out and visit with everyone till midnight. Good times.
Joseph as you know does not like fireworks. So he choose to sit in the back and keep his ears covered.
Jarren and Jacob with sparklers.
John getting ready to light the next wave of fireworks for display.
Our Friends. As you can tell I was playing with the setting on the camera which resulted in a poor picture.
Tally thinking it is a great idea to put lighter fluid on the fire. That was lots of fun to watch.

I have to say that these are some of my most favorite moments being about to be out with good people and watching the kids play and grow lasting friendships.

Karate Jacob

In January my mother decided to start Karate for exercise and took Jacob with her. Now they are on their way to becoming black belts. Jacob is in little Dragons and is a Orange belt. He really likes it and I enjoy the things he is learning about respect and listening.
Jacob waiting to test for his orange belt.
Jacob getting his orange belt.

A little video of Jacob in Karate Class.

I will have to get some pictures of my mother in class. She is now a high yellow on her way to Green belt. She just mastered board breaking with her foot. I am really proud of her and excited that she is doing this. Thanks mom for getting Jacob in Karate with you.

The Past 6 Months

It was six months ago that I gave birth to our daughter Jocelyn Cristeen Files and were able to spend a wonderful 24 hours with her. We loved and welcomed her to our family and in the same breath said a temporary good bye.

It is so strange to think that it has been 6 months when it feels just like yesterday. Instead looking at how big she would have been and all the things that she would have been doing, we are looking at how much our lives have changed in the way we view life and our tender moments with our boys. We miss her deeply and a day does not go by that we are not thinking of her. Although the pain of her not being with us is at times unbearable, we are still blessed to know that she is our little angel watching over us and is patiently waiting the day we can all be together. The boys often talk about her and ask questions as to why she is not with us. We know that the answers to that question will reveal themselves to us over the rest of our life and we look forward all that learning.

Our Days

Each day is a surprise never knowing if it will be a good day with meltdowns or if it will be a bad day with a few meltdowns. We also have had some very bad days as well, but there have been some really good days of peace and comfort. I pray and look forward to more of those days. I have often thought that with time it will get easier, but I must be honest that the last few months have been much harder then they were in the beginning. We have learned that this is common because we have spent more time in shock then we realized and now life is moving forward with reality setting in. So I guess it has to get a little tougher before it gets better. It is tiring sometimes to pretend that everything is well all the time. But we know that as long as we keep our faith in the Lord he will comfort us when we need it most. When I am having a bad moment I have found great comfort in this scripture John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid" and in the Doctrine in Convents D&C 24:8 "Be patient in afflictions, for thou shalt have many; but endure them, for, lo, I am with thee, even unto the end of thy days". We have a very long list of scriptures that we turn to in our moments of deep sadness and grief. We are not strong, but are learning to be strong, which will only come from our growing faith in the Lord.

The Honest Truth

Although we are doing our very very best to hold on to our faith in the Lord there are moments where I wonder how much I can take. Life is precious and must not be taken for granted. When I see other women who are expecting I only think one thing and that is "please Lord let that little one make it into this world safely" Our sweet innocence's is gone of getting pregnant and having a baby at the end. It is hard going places and seeing babies every where as reminders that I do not have mine with me physically. I think the worst is looking at my post pregnancy body and feeling like a failure that I could not get her here. I know that all these thoughts will pass over time, because I know that I am not a failure. I just carried a perfect little spirit that only needed a body and to return home to our Heavenly Father. That is in it's self is a great honor.

Over Looked

When someone loses a child or infant it is the father that sometimes gets over looked. Everyone is quick to ask how the mother is doing and rarely stops to ask how the father is. John as been very strong in the support he gives me, and I in turn must do the same for him. He hurts just as much as I do. The Following poem found in the book Gone Too Soon. It was written by a mother who watched the pain her son in law facing the loss of a little girl as well.

It must be very difficult
to be a man in grief,
since "men don't cry" and men are strong"
No tears can bring relief.

It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test
and field calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.

They always ask if she's all right
and what she's going through,
but seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"
He hears her crying in the night
and thinks his heart will break.
He dries her tears and comforts her,
But "stays strong" for her sake.

It must be very difficult
To start each day anew
and try to be so very brave
He lost his baby too.

Eileen Knight Hagemeister


Answers if that is what you call them

We still do not know what happened or why she passed. We only have speculation and theories. My OB doctor sent me to have a consultation with with an internal fetal medicine doctor. Since we did have an ultra sound at 36 weeks where Jocelyn was showing perfect health and growth and on target for her due date. We know that something happened in that last four weeks of pregnancy. The internal fetal medicine doctor believes some form of placental failure took place. the test on the placenta came back clear of any infection or disease. This is when I have to rely on my beliefs and testimony that the Lord had a much bigger plan and needed her for that.


What I have learned about stillbirth

I have spent many hours researching the science behind all this. No it has not brought comfort to me but I feel better informed for the future. I learned that a stillbirth is 10 times more likely then SIDS. And in a stillbirth study done 2006 to 2008 which included 154 stillbirths Salt Lake County said "the most common cause was placental problems such as blood clots. Others include bacterial and viral infections that caused the uterus to expel the fetus:maternal medical conditions like diabetes, kidney disease and hypertension: and genetic abnormalities. While 10% of stillbirths are from cord accidents." found in an article from the Salt Lake Tribune. The article then stated that most stillbirths can be prevented with close prenatal care. I also have found lots of information on the March of Dimes website as well.

Family and Friends

I am still in awe from all the overwhelming love and support that our family has received through this heart breaking experience. I have so much gratitude for our family, close friends near and far, neighbors and church members. I am forever Thankful!!! I feel at times I will never be able to repay all the wonderful things that have been given or done for us. I pray that the lord blesses you. For you have shown what it means to bear one anthers burdens and to serve selflessly. Thank You for being there. We Love each and everyone of you!

Jocelyn's Services

Close to a week after Jocelyn's birth and passing John and I went to the funeral home where we dressed our daughter and held her one last time and sang her the same lullaby that we sing to our boys at night before bed. Then we slowly put her in her princess bed. We had a private family viewing with a few close friends. What special feeling we had in that room.

I was great full to Jennifer with NILMDTS to come and take more pictures for us. She is so amazing and was able to take some beautiful shots of the boys and our family. I have posted a couple of those in Jocelyn's photo gallery located in the right hand side bar.

The following morning we had a simple graveside service with the only sunshine in the valley. I know that Jocelyn was with us and made that sunshine come through on her special day. Our Bishop shared some special words followed by John giving the dedication and blessing prayer for Jocelyn's grave. I do not remember the words that were said, only that it was very spiritual and sacred.

We then had a luncheon with family and few close friends. That was enjoyable to be around so many loved ones.

Few Months Later

Around the end of February beginning March Jocelyn's headstone was laid. We have put a small hook with a butterfly and purple tear drop butterfly hanging from it.


The mountain view from her headstone.

Our 1st holidays without Jocelyn

The holidays have been hard since we had been excited to grow our family and to share these moments together. We have kept her in our hearts during the holidays and included her memory with us at these special moments.
Easter Sunday...The Easter Bunny left a purple bunny for Jocelyn which we took and put on her grave. John with the boys.
Me with Jarren and Joseph. Jacob wanted to get back in the car. It was on the chilly side.
Me and the Boys on Mother's Day. This was not an easy day since this was also the day we learned we were expecting her a year earlier.
The grass had turned green just in time for Mother's Day. It was so pretty.
The view on Mother's day after the grass had turned green. I love this view.
Her 1st memorial day. The boys were so excited to put flowers on her headstone. The whole cemetery just looked beautiful.

The flowers and angel we left for her on her grave for memorial day.

Looking To The Future

So here we are half year later and our lives are forever changed as we still adjust to a new normal of life. While we are still hurting and grieving, we are slowly healing and look forward to the days of pure joy. President Thomas S Monson of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints Said that the Journey would not be easy but to find the Joy in the Journey. Through my pain and heartache I do fine peace and joy that I have a special angel waiting and watching over us.I am part a sacred club that we never wanted to be part of but here we are. Jocelyn has given us so much and I am so proud of her and honored to be her mother. The loss of a child is one that I do not wish on upon anyone.

John and I will continue to take one day at a time and to find Joy in our boys so that they can gain a testimony of Christ and understand his plan for us. We know that we have a long journey still ahead and that we will be blessed along the way.

"I will turn their Mourning into joy and will comfort them,
and make them rejoice their sorrow." Jeremiah 31:13

The following is a song that has brought comfort to me and says exactly how I feel. It is put with some personal and special pictures. This video is a piece of John and I's heart to be shared those we love. The sound is not as crisp as I would like it but I did not know how to change the file size for uploading.

"Because life is fragile and death inevitable, we must make the most of each day."
President Thomas S. Monson

1st Birthday in Heaven click HERE